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During the length of the USC Senior Graphic Design show held in the student gallery of McMaster in November, I think I went to see it six times. Each of the times I went, I found something new that I hadn’t seen before. Also, each time I went the show, it left me feeling different emotions than I had felt originally. I thought it was a wonderful showcase of talent, and a nice insight into the minds of those who were accepted into the graphic design program, and are soon to head out into the world as designers. I really enjoyed the show for a number of reasons; it spoke to me in many ways, some of which were oddly profound. I’ll try to explain what about this show spoke to me and what gave it its meaning the best I can.
To me, this show ended up becoming a more emotional thing to me, rather than just a show. Every time I went back, I could feel this connection strengthening between me, the designers, and the work. It’s almost like each time I went back, I found out something more about their work, and maybe even the designers themselves. They felt more and more like people I could be friends with, just knowing we’re all working toward the same goals in life. Seeing their self-portraits and the fun and silliness and then back to the great work they were making, it really made me start to think. I thought a lot, actually.
A little unnecessary background info on myself; I’ve never quite figured out where I belonged in life. I’ve wasted so much time experimenting around trying to find my calling; where I fit in. I began messing around in Photoshop when I was 12, and I found a lot of fun in manipulating and creating interesting images. Soon, it became evident to me that I should probably devote my life to trying to make a living making art using the computer as a tool. I majored in Visual Arts in high school, and I had decided to major in Graphic Design at USC. I was very excited to be accepted here, and I was happy to be studying art regardless of me switching back and forth between ideas of what I really wanted to do in life. However, with these contrasting thoughts, I held on and stuck to the idea of majoring in graphic design.
When I got to finally take this class, I was really excited. I had been waiting for years to get to this point; I could finally take my first graphic design class. Unfortunately, as the class progressed, I could just feel my determination and former aspiration slowly diminishing. I had never really experienced actual graphic design; I didn’t know what to expect quite yet. Taking this class was a big wake-up call to me. It really makes me question if I’m taking the right path. I’m not sure if I have the personality to be able to survive in such a professional and competitive field, not to mention the talent it takes to even get accepted into the program here. Receiving constructive criticism and being told to change ideas I’ve come up just drains the life out of me. And it becomes this negative cycle where I try to do something good and don’t do a very good job and I feel less determined to try harder in the future. Some people may take negative criticism and use it as a motivational tool to get better, but for me, it seems to work in the opposite way. I make the best art when I’m happy and I get to be myself. To me, graphic design has just become this stressful thing where it feels like I’m just being forced to make lame art for purposes I don’t care about personally, and I’m really not sure if it’s the right thing for me.
So now, the idea of the show making such a big impact on me may make a little more sense. The first time I went, it was a brief visit just admiring all the cool stuff everyone did. But something just kept bringing me back, like I had questions that needed to be answered. Each time left me feeling differently than the last, as I said before. I alternated between wanting to quit graphic design and wanting to continue trying almost each time I went. I would always go back to the self-portraits, and then the photo with everybody in it. I think the thing that kept bringing me back was how happy they all looked. They all looked like they were all really fun and silly people, and they looked proud to have been good enough to be accepted into the program. There really looked like there was a sense of family. I really looked into that picture, very deeply, just trying to see myself in it. I wanted to imagine myself trying my best and getting accepted, getting to finally belong somewhere and having close friends to be silly with. But, I just don’t know if it’s right for me.. I was so appalled at how happy they looked. It’s the type of happiness I wish I could feel with this, but it just feels like such stressful work to me. I don’t understand how they can all be having so much fun; I wish I could be as happy as they are with graphic design. But maybe the fact that I don’t understand says I wouldn’t fit in.
As for the work itself, it was all very nice, as I said. To pick out a few that really stood out to me, I’ll say the band posters, the Back to the Future poster, “Lose Yourself to Dance”, “So many thoughts in my head”… I also really liked the little cube people, I thought they were cute. But the reason why I liked these works so much was because of the creativity and skill in them. The band posters were cool because they had this kinda playful “drawn by a 5 year old” look, but they made it look professional with the style. The other works all showed a nice example of varying textures, interesting typefaces, orientation and gradation. It was all inspiring to look at; enough to make me want to keep trying a little longer at least. In conclusion, I feel like the show was a big help to me. It gave me a small glimpse into the lives of those accepted into the program and those who have similar goals to me. It showed me the type of work I would have to expect to be doing, along with the type of work I could be doing. I’m not sure if graphic design is my thing, but going to this show so many times at least seemed to help give me a better idea of if I really wanted to devote my life to design.